It is a bit humbling to write this. But it is me . . . it is where I am today and writing anything else would leave me feeling like a hypocrite.
Because the knot is forming in the pit of my stomach again. Insecurities I’ve fought for years, resurfacing. I keep thinking that maybe, just maybe, I’m getting past them. And then there they are again, like the Loch Ness Monster arching his head out of the lake.
And that monster feeds me lies. I fight, my head shaking back and forth, refusing to open myself to his offerings. But his lies can slip in through the skin, right to the heart.
You are not enough for your husband.
You’re only half a mother.
You can’t get your act together.
What do you think you’re doing writing in a public space?
He’s a crafty monster. You can pretty much bet that his lies will always carry a bit of truth. Why else would we be tempted to believe them? Because he’s right.
I am not enough.
But I am.
Because He, the God of all light and truth, is the Limit-Breaker. He can defy our weakness with all the power of His strength.
It is not enough to simply ignore the lies of the Accuser. One cannot take an isolationist viewpoint with him. No. The sword of truth must be unsheathed.
One stronger than I helps me wield it.
Today, I must, simply must, be thankful for truth.
Numbering the ways I am thankful . . . He is our Victory:
#148 That he is crushed by His heel
#149 That if I am resting in Him, finding my strength in Him . . . He is enough and therefore, I am more than enough.
#150 It is God who arms me with strength and keeps my way secure. Psalm 18:32
#151 The Lord is my strength and my shield…. Ps. 28:7
#152 He that is in me is greater than he that is in the world. 1 John 4:4
#153 That He invites me to be strong in Him and in His mighty power. Eph. 6
#154 That He makes me stand. Eph. 6
#154 That I am God’s special possession. 1 Pet. 2:9
#155 That His mercies are new every morning.
#156 That He is making all things new.
#157 That He transforms by the renewing of the mind. Rom. 12:2
#158 That He is Light. In Him there is no darkness at all. 1 John 4:5
#159 That He who began a good work, will be sure to complete it. Phil. 1:6
#160 That He can be trusted. His word, His work in me, is truth.