Do you ever wonder where you are? You know where HE is. That He never leaves, never forsakes, but do you ever wonder if you’ve wandered a bit? Maybe been a Gomer and given your love to something else? Not even another entity, but a mere searching for something you think may fill you? The job promotion you’ve always wanted. Marrying the man of your dreams. Having a child. A home. A relationship restored. Or maybe your mind’s even simply been a little obsessed over those new curtains you’ve been saving up for, or the new 6-burner industrial gas stove your “kitchen’s” just itching to have.
And something or someone unknowingly wakes you up from the your heart’s wanderings and you suddenly realize just how little you’ve been living. You see their life. Their passion for Someone and something bigger than themselves. And while you’ve been pining and chasing after that certain dream or desire, you’ve neglected the here. The now. The HIM.
Oh, you’ve marched on, bathing kids and cooking suppers and doing laundry and working those long, soul-tiring days. But your mind and heart . . . oh, it has been on a wandering. A looking. A peering. And all the while, a real, soul-quenching Filling has been just watching you, just waiting, willing you to turn your heart . . . back . . . your First Love waits.
He wants to enlarge these hearts of ours. Widen their myopic horizons and give us His life-sustaining view. If we seek, we will find. If we lose our lives, they will ironically be saved. If we give, He will shake and press and make room for more. Because what we reap, we will sow. And if we thirst, He satisfies.
I thirst. My face turns. And I blush that there He is. His eyes watching. Willing me to turn my wandering heart. He humbles me with His patience and how can I not thank?
#586 That He is there and His promises are true
#587 little birthday seeds in Firefly’s hands, waiting to be sown
#588 a cool, summery breeze
#589 little songs, made up by little hearts and voices
#590 unexpected turns
#591 strawberry cake and candy flowers
#592 sweet birthday get-togethers
#593 cool water running over toes in August-like heat
#594 carousel rides and little girls in bathing suits
#595 that my should-have-been-a-boyscout sister had an extra shirt after a swimmie diaper malfunctioned (not mine, in case you were wondering) 🙂
#596 even him, just waiting for me, for my heart to slow
#597 pink lemonade and chaco tans
#598 tiger lily blooms
#599 a wonderful community and wonderful neighbors and wonderful wonderfulness 🙂
#600 SIX HUNDRED!!!!!
#601 determined independence and little sandals being put on by her own little hands
#602 just the waiting, the searching, the learning of myself
#603 that he likes to hear my thoughts, the thoughts I used to be so afraid to share
#604 pink and turquoise balloons
#605 iphone auto-correction
#606 sweet friends and their hearts for Haiti and orphans and nannies
#607 hose water, trickling
#608 giggles, giggles, giggles
#609 crying through Fancy Nancy
#610 that we are never alone
#611 that He can light fire where there is no tinder
#612 make-shift black out curtains and sleeping in just a little
#613 that there are more gifts than I could ever count